Gram,
Why did you have to leave us? I cannot believe that you are gone. I never thought that when I took you in the ambulance thrusday night that we would lose you. I thought that you would bounce back like you always did. You suffered so bad. That night no matter what i did i could not take your pain away. But you never got mad at me. You just kept telling cassandra and I a different postion to try. We tried ourt best but we could not take your pain away. It hurt me so bad to see you suffer the way you did. But now your pain is gone and you are with gramp. I know you have missed him those 16 years that you were apart. But now you are together again. Some day we will all be with you. Even though we miss you so bad we know that you are not suffering. You were so brave to go through those dialysis treatments. You never once complained about going for them. Even though your arms were so bruised. And you were so tired when you would come home. By you putting up with those treatments we were able to have you with us for two extra years. I will always treasure those years. You never got mad at any of us no matter what we did. You would always listen and act like you agreed with our view of things whether you did or not. you were so happy when i decided to sign up for classes at mcc. Now you will not be there to see if I can make it. I lost you and chico both within two days. My two best friends. You were upset to lose chico too. I will never forget you. I have alot of memories of you.
One of them was when we lived behind you and for some reason david and Johnny was throwing tomatoes at you. You picked up the tomatoes and started throwing them right back at them.
Our xmases when we were small where we all used to sleep at your house. And as the family got bigger we were running out of space that sometimes we were even lined up in the hall outside of your bedroom and we would lay there and listen to gramp snore.
Every saturday we would come and have chili and watch lawrence welk. Sunday was our spegetti day. Gramp would get really mad when the girls would not help with the dishes. That he would come out and wash the dishes and i would dry them.
You were daring enough to leave the city of rochester and drive all the way to florida in a station wagon with your five little grandchildren. It was like a scence from one of the chevy chase movies. you laughed when we would stop in those little hick towns to use the bathroom and they would have little shacks to go to the bathroom in. Then when we got there we found out that it was spring break and john was going 5 miles an hour bumper to bumper and the police pulled us over and gave him a ticket for speeding and you told john to just be quiet and take the ticket. that ticket cost us about $140.00
One other memory that i have is the last time that Tammie and I gave you a shower. i told her to hang onto you because i was trying to clean something up. But she was laughing too hard and she told you to hangon. The next thing that we knew you fell in the bottom of the bathtub and we had to have my dad come in and pick her up because we could not get her up. she would never set foot in the bathroom to take a shower again. Alicia and jennifer were so mad at us for dropping you. but you did not get mad at us. you just laughed.
It never mattered to you whether your grandchildren were biological, adopted or from another country. You loved them all no matter how they came into our family. You accepted them no matter what kind of problems any of them would have. You always hoped for the best for all of them. she was proud of all of us.
Alot of people felt that we were wrong for not putting my grandmother into a nursing home. But when my mom and i felt that we needed help, that we could not do it by ourselves anymore i found her aides to help us out and she enjoyed those aides very much. she had alot of fun with her aides. they were very good to her and i know that they both truly loved my grandmother and she loved them. I would like to thank anna and her daughter cassandra and connie for all the help that they gave my mom and i. without their help we would not have been able to keep her home till the end. The last couple of days they were putting in xtra shifts. and cassandra stayed at the hospital with me till 2 am. I really appreciated what they all did.
